CTW with a Positive Exercise Attitude

Exercise has been something I have enjoyed off and on in my life.  When I was in high school I exercised most days which was mainly due to the activities I was involved in.   As I look back I realize that I would look forward to the activities, which was creating a positive attitude with regard to exercise even though I did not realize it.  After I married and started having children things changed, mainly working full-time and looking after the needs of a family left me little time to exercise.  I don’t really think my attitude toward exercise changed so much but the priority disappeared.    

The reason I am reflecting back to my younger years is because Sunday morning I woke up at my usual exercise time and I felt my attitude changing a little.  Normally, I hop out of bed,  get dressed and out onto the pavement I go for a nice walk with a little running to enjoy the morning and de-stress time.  But this Sunday was different.  Fall had arrived and the temperature was in the low 40’s.  Every time I started to get out of bed I felt the cool air hit my body and I was like are you kidding me…what am I doing?   The house was extremely quiet and I will say again cool.  My bed on the other hand was quite warm and comfy.  I was experiencing a change of attitude with the change in weather.  It took me about 20 minutes to convince myself that I needed to get out of the warm, comfy bed and exercise. 

After what seemed liked forever, I finally won the exercise attitude crisis.  I made my way out of bed, got dressed and hit the pavement.  Once I got into the walk I realized how great it was that I had decided to exercise.   The morning air was crisp, the sky was clear, the sun was bright and the leaves are really starting to change colors.  As I was walking I reflected on all the beautiful things I would have missed had I let my poor attitude win.  Not only was I helping my mental and physical self but I was experiencing beauty in many forms.  It was awesome.  I’m so glad I didn’t cave!

I realized after this incident that choosing to win with regard to exercise has much to do with attitude.  There will always be many things to give us an out…but what are we missing along the way if we give in to those things?  I am glad I chose to win the exercise attitude crisis as it created a more positive attitude which I have carried with me since.   Cheers to a positive attitude!

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CTW the Weight Loss Battle

Today I have been thinking a lot about my weight loss journey…or perhaps battle is a better way to describe it.  Seven (7) years ago I weighed 280 lbs., had just turned 40 years old and was going through divorce.  I want to mention first that my weight in no way impacted my divorce as some women, myself included, blame themselves for most everything including being at fault in a situation such as divorce when in reality it is much larger than that.  I think there must be something in our internal genes that gives us this lack of confidence; nonetheless, my weight had nothing to do with it so please don’t link the two together.

Once I decided to lose weight I joined a local Weight Watcher Program.  They had a six (6) week special promotional running and I felt like this would give me the confidence and accountability I needed to tackle this tough situation.  However, as you will recall from my previous post, I was going through divorce and money was not readily available for me continue the program after six (6) weeks.  So basically, I joined, received all of the information and then continued the program on my own.  This turned out to be the best idea I ever had and it was exactly what I needed!

I also began an exercise program.  Again, something I initiated on my own due to lack of funds.  I decided to start walking.  The only investment this required was one of time.  I was so heavy that I would get up at 5:00 a.m. to walk before work.  Looking back I think I was embarrassed about my size and walking this early in the morning allowed me to do so without an audience.  The lack of confidence monster rearing his evil head once again.  Anyway, I started out trying to do a mile, which I will say was very difficult.  It would take me about 45 minutes to slowly walk the mile…but I continued the journey and today I can walk a mile in about 13 minutes, which isn’t that bad.

I can reflect back on so much of this journey, like times when I struggled the most, times when I experienced the most success and milestones I reached along the way.  This morning I weighed 164 lbs, which means over a seven (7) year period I have lost 116 lbs.  My goal weight is somewhere between 145 lbs and 150 lbs., given my age of 47 years and my height of 5’4″, which means I need to lose somewhere between 14 and 19 lbs to reach goal. 

I have struggled along the way with losing this  last amount of weight.  Last year during the holiday season I gained about 10 lbs.  I only lost that of recent…hopefully not to regain it and continuing on the path to goal.  What a struggle!

I also went from a size 24 to a size 12!  My goal is at least a 10…maybe some 8’s.    

By taking my time and losing the weight slowly I developed better eating habits, which required a lifestyle change, and more control, not only with eating but other areas of my life.  Since this was such an overwhelming amount of weight to lose, I decided to lose it slowly and exercise which in turn allowed my skin to adjust slowly to the change.  I would encourage all who need to lose a lot of weight, like I did, to think about all of the consequences that follow this weight loss and develop a plan that help you to reach each goal…such as a change of lifestyle.

My thought for today is weight loss and maintenance will always be a struggle for me.  I know this…but with this knowledge I am Choosing to Win at this journey!  I am grateful to all who have encouraged me along the way! 

If I can do this I know that all of you out there who are struggling with this issue can as well!  CTW!


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Welcome to Choosing to Win!!

About seven years ago I found myself in a most interesting situation.  I was going through divorce, only had a high school education therefore leaving me no way to support myself or my daughter who was 17 at the time, and last, but definitely not least, I weighed over 280 pounds.  Believe me this is a short list of the crisis situation I found myself in.   However, at this point in my life I felt like I was anything but a winner.  I actually felt like I was miserably pathetic by every search of the imagination.     

You might ask how could anyone in this situation ever overcome, move on and “CTW” or “Choose to Win?”  Well, the road was a long and rough one and believe me I felt many bumps along the way, but finally I am beginning to feel like a winner!  And if I can feel this way…ANYONE CAN!!!

My hope with regard to this blog is to discuss the many different situations we find ourselves involved in with life and to discuss and present ways to “CTW” or “Choose to Win” in that situation.  I want the blog to be a positive situation for all those who read.  While I will discuss many life situations, and will discuss my journey along the way, I do hope it will assist those who read with their journey!


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